I was always an awkward kid. I didn’t know how to make friends and felt alone for many of my younger years. My depression got worse and I couldn’t find an outlet for my pain. That is until I found alcohol. I finally was able to not feel what I was feeling anymore.
I gradually began using harder and harder drugs and I finally found what I thought I was looking for when I shot up for the first time before my senior year. I thought I was invincible. I somehow graduated high school but that was the best I could do. I found myself homeless and jobless and just living each day to get high. I was miserable and just did not know what to do.
I ended up turning myself in on charges hoping I could detox in jail. My judge thought treatment was a better option. This was not my plan and I didn’t even realize that I could live a life off of all substances.
I have been sober since July 24th of 2010. My sober life never stops amazing me. I have been able to live a life that I enjoy. I have real relationships with people who love me and I love them. I can be helpful to others and that is what truly makes me happy at the end of the day.
I resigned to the fact that I would die a junkie on the streets, I never knew how amazing life could be.